Satu hari Selasa .. we made ourselves available to have lunch together. Kak Senah packed 5 packs of Chicken Rice and we ate at our very old sentimental pantry. We ate, we talked, we laugh and offcourse .. photoing is a must. Mana boleh tak ambik gambar .. rugi la nanti tak ada kenangan.
Even everyone is busy, kitorang tetap sesekali berjumpa menyuburkan lagi kasih sayang antara kami yang memang sudah sedia ada. Rindu la kalau tak jumpa .. dengan dorang-dorang ni je Misz-ella akan ketawa besar sampai keluar airmata. They really know how to make me laugh. Love you, frens. Sayang korang ketat-ketat dan ketat lagi sampai korang tak boleh bernafas. Tehehehe.
Fiza cakap, since Ella dengan Rosnah tak ada, kitorang pun macam dah tak da tempat nak pergi. Aku makan mana dan je .. Lyn pun pandai-pandai la bawak diri ke Pantry Tingkat 1 selepas peninggalan kami berdua. When I looked at this place, it reminded me on a lot of things .. Lyn masa bermasalah, di sini lah dia 'hugged Misz-ella and cried on my shoulder in one early morning'. In this pantry jugak lah kitorang bercerita, mengalir airmata bersama bila one of us ditimpa masalah. This is the place where we shared our life together for many-many years. *rolling tears *sobs**
I remember the office was empty when we moved in. Misz-ella dengan Kak Senah yang pilih sendiri Kerusi warna apa kitorang nak for our office, Filing cabinet macamana we want to be in our Floor, Partition kaler apa, our Eating table and chairs, Sofa, beli pinggan mangkuk untuk ofis ... semua kami buat sendiri. Kenangan ~ Aku takkan lupa sampai bila-bila.
Sesal? Tak. Langsung tidak. I believe in "Kun Fa Ya Kun". Segala-galanya kerana Dia. Ketentuan Dia. Kekuatan kita dari Dia. Its not an easy decision for us .. we gave ourselves a very long thought before we decided to leave. There was one day, i was so down .. masa ni rasa macam nak menjerit, rasa macam dibahu Misz-ella memikul satu beban yang tersangatlah berat. Once arrived the office, i told Kak Senah, i want to give my Divorce letter today. She was so sad. Kenapa macam ni? Kan kita dah janji nak 'resign' sama-sama .. and her mood was affected the whole day. She told the rest .. Ella nak resign, aku sedih. Then i reconsider my decision ... OK Senah, I wait for you. When the day came, both of us handed the letter to H.R. Nobody expect our decision. Tak da yang sangka kami akan berhenti. Sume ingat kami akan disini sampai Pencen or Mati. Alangkah ceteknya pemikiran manusia when they try to be the Judge. My life, my future, i decide and after giving the letter, both of us are the most happiest person in the world. Something that we waited .. we planned became a reality .. WE MADE IT. Sampai sekarang, kami masih melafaz SYUKUR .. tiap kali topik ini kami bincang. Allah is Great. He has His own plan for us and His plan is alway the best. Alhamdulillah.
Macam berjanji la pulak Misz-ella dengan Kak Senah ~ sama kaler bajunya. Senyum pun sefesyen pulak tu. Tehehehe. There is nothing much i want in life except for Moga Allah SWT melindungi dan memelihara orang-orang yang aku sayangi. Berkatilah perjalanan hidup mereka .. moga terus kekal berkembang kasih sayang kami semua dan lindungi lah juga mereka-mereka yang membaca Entry Kasih Sayang ini. Amin. Ok bye. Dah pukul 12:15 malam, i want to sleep. Good night/morning my beloved readers. Tq for reading. Byeeee.
sobs sobs sobs
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best friends are hard to seek..
ReplyDeletehidup perlu diteruskan. antara yang paling sukar adalah nak melepaskan kenangan terindah kan :) love your blog
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